Even though we have probably been through entirely different experiences, I can relate to a lot of her lyrics. Something I've heard today has really caught my attention. It's a small part of one of her songs, but it's significant. The line says,
"But then I go on again, because you asked me to."
Love it... This last month or so has been rather difficult, and I haven't wanted to write on here at all. I guess I've just been thinking that I couldn't exactly share any aspect of positivity, that it would probably all be really depressing or something. But I guess it's ok for things to not always be great, for life to go up and down some. I'm not saying now that everything will change because I've heard this one line from a song, but it has made me think a little more about my mind and how I've been succumbing to everything. People tell me to keep going and to keep fighting, and sometimes I feel like no one understands how difficult things can be. However, they are certainly still correct - I have to keep going; I have to keep fighting, even when I really don't want to, even when I'd rather give in. I have many amazingly encouraging, helpful people in my life, and maybe I need to start trusting them a little more. Maybe they do know what they are talking about. Maybe I shouldn't trust myself all the time, because my sight is blurry and foggy. I have a lot of trouble finding genuine clarity. People keep fighting for me, so I just might need to start fighting for myself.
[Because you've asked me to, I will go on again.]
You are absolutely right my sweet, precious daughter, you must keep going and fighting. I know I only have an itty bitty glance into how hard it must be, but I know full well that you are worth the fight! And the even better news is that you are not alone! And even more importantly than that is that God is with you! I believe God places people in our lives to help us, encourage us, stand with us, challenge us and love us. You do have ALOT of people in your life who love you and care for you very, very much! Listen to their words, soak them in, draw from them in weak moments. But more importantly, in those moments pray and get out your Bible and read scriptures - or just read them off your wall - you have them everywhere! Smile. Remember, God gave you life for a purpose! Ultimately, your trust has to be in God because He will never fail you!!!
ReplyDeleteYour dad and I are sooooo very proud of you and love you sooooooo very much!!! That might sound trite, but the incredible joy, happiness, laughter, and indescrible love you bring to our lives is hard to put into mere words!!!
Love you dearly!!! Mom